In the Mind of Madness

April 11, 2008

Feeling the Economic Pinch

Filed under: Finances — taintedgoth1 @ 12:43 am

I’m sure many of us have noticed that the US has fallen on hard times. If you haven’t noticed then you’ve got to be living in a fantasy world! Because I would be considered poor in the financial scheme of things, things hit me and my family harder than some others who still have a little cushion in their life.

The local economy here is feeling the pinch more than ever before. In my local area there are many factories that build prefabricated and modular homes…it’s actually one of the biggest markets in this area, aside from grocery stores and stores like Wal-Mart. Due to this economic pinch, my dad’s company is laying off 34 workers permanently. We have yet to learn who those people are.

My worry is that one of those men is going to be my dad. You see, because of my disability my dad cares for me and takes care of a lot of my needs. I give all I can but when you’re only making $600 a month then it’s pretty hard to fork out money irresponsibly for things that I don’t need. I pay rent and my phone/dsl bill…I don’t have much left after that…and I use it for necessities or to help a little with the grocery bill. I don’t buy anything special…my life is what you would call minimalistic. I can’t go buy clothes or shoes unless I save up for it…and I’m trying to save all I can for other things.

The things that people take for granted are the things we struggle to keep. Sure I have a computer, but it was given to me for free. I pay my own way….or as much as possible. I just hope this pinch doesn’t put us in such a bind that we will not be able to afford groceries…but I do know the economy is bad.

April 7, 2008

Domestic Violence

Filed under: Abuse — taintedgoth1 @ 8:21 pm

Domestic violence is something that I believe too many people like to ignore. There are so many men and women out there who are victimized every day by their significant others–people who don’t deserve the wrath of an abuser.

My story is similar to many victims out there. I meet a very charming and loving guy. He seems to be perfect and then things change. In my case it was a man who was constantly overbearing and over affectionate. Then it turned into situations where he was stalking me online and preventing me from having friendships with others that he wasn’t friends with. Even after I left he continued the stalking. He was always nice as pie to my face but behind my back he was malicious and vindictive.

I suffer from the effects of what he did to me, a sufferer of post-traumatic stress disorder and I currently am afflicted with agoraphobia. He had sent people after me online…people I was once friends with but who would rather believe his lies than believe the truth. I even felt the need to leave many forums online just to protect myself from him. I’m sure many people are hurt that I had to cut them off, but I need to protect myself.

Domestic violence hasn’t only touched my life. My brother has been victim to this awful form of abuse, but his has been much more severe. He had been with a woman who beat on him all the time, accused him of horrible crimes, infidelity, and anything else she could think of. He finally fled from her and is staying with us here. He had to file a protecton from abuse (PFA) order against his ex because of her repeated threats on our family and him. She had been calling over 20 times a day (12 hour period) and it was to where we couldn’t answer the phone at all. We are grateful for the PFA, as it saves us from further threats.

It’s sad with my brother’s case because there are no resources in place for male victims of domestic violence in this area. No shelters at all. If only people would realize that women weren’t the only victims of this type of abuse.

Domestic violence isn’t something that only women are victims of. It affects many men as well. I think we need to realize this and open our eyes to the terrible truths about this form of abuse.

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